Video about my experience of generalized anxiety disorder and grief😜😜😒😒πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

2 years ago anniversary Losing my motherπŸ˜‡ to cancer my generalized anxiety disorder is annoyingπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‹πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­

Hi how are you doing ?I’m so shocked I have come this far without my mum in my life when I lost her at 18  my life stopped I drank heavily in my house pretending to be happy little did I know that I had generalized anxiety disorder I remember going to the doctor them sending putting me on a long list  for therapy and referring me to see if I have generalized anxiety i spent so long not knowing giving  me every medication I was on antidepressants I got told early last year after two years you have generalized anxiety and depression It all made sense.why my social relationships and personal relationship always failed or I love too hard .But grief is hard and difficult finding   love again but anyone who wants to try please do  application still going on I still loving myself it’s ok not to be ok πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹πŸ’•

Generalized anxiety disorder me back to self love πŸ˜ͺπŸ˜›πŸ˜›πŸ’”πŸ’—

Hi how are you i know anxiety disorder can be the annoying scary good thing after I was diagnosed It all made sense but I still go through the it but medation has been great and CBT. Im still doing but they check up on me every few weeks I was so ill this week with asthma and next month will be coming up to 2 years since me and dad lost my mum the glue that stuck as together have a look at my blog with my help he not all good smart phone technology i have been talking to my ex again don’t judge he isn’t happy. and going through a low time so I reach out on Insta just see if he was ok he said he lost his closest friend to him in uni so he dropped out he doesn’t mind me talking about this but don’t talk to him because he made the realtionship more weird by cheat ig on me not telling me because he said he didn’t want it to affect my mental health.That made feel me awful my friend knew I didn’t shout I just said i can’t do this she was like lets go on a night out and forget about him I didn’t forget about him and the scary thing is I love hard that is why I have defence up all the time. πŸ€”so my friend rang him with me In the room and said tell her the truth he told me I just cryed in a bar just shock had a panic attack this is all happened late last year since then I have dated guys spoke to them but and other things but not got in to a realtionship again I want to but I feel like gonna have to prove to me that you let me self love that what I’m doing now πŸ’”πŸ’”

Darling it’sΒ  world mental health awareness day πŸ’“πŸ˜πŸ˜­πŸ˜›πŸ’•πŸ˜’πŸ’•πŸ˜›πŸ˜­

HelloπŸ˜›πŸ˜’πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹ 1  day late but who cares how are you? it has been the hardest years of my life but the 20 yearold me with anxiety disorder and depression and grief is getting there but still got a long way to go if you would of told me I would be doing this In 2017 ater I lost my mum cancer would not of believe you Check up on your mates and familyπŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜­πŸ’―πŸ’πŸ’my video no face today sound up enjoy

Losing yourself while understanding not everyone understands your condition but the few who do are coolπŸ˜œπŸ’πŸ˜­gad

Hi how are you ok πŸ™‹πŸ’“its know that I have my up and down days I started college part time it’s in London it’s ok I guess I was having an ok day forgot half the things being said anyway but I was still worried about the job I was in if you saw my previous post I was in job that wasn’t that good but yeah update they have to pay me for my service any way I was so confused with that .my generalized anxiety disorder has been surprising I try and be calm but I can’t today I feel like I’m going to cry but I’m that gotchas I keep saying to myselfπŸ’“πŸ’“ I was speaking to a friend of mine they were saying they so happy to see me out and about again but scarily I put on a face which is happy but inside crumble  sometimes  when I was younger I used always get picked last always told no because I was dyslexic or because I was shy until I realized when I grew up and lost mum the anxiety of  people not know about your condition is the bad thing just be you unapologetically.πŸ’“πŸ˜‹πŸ˜

The week everything went smoothly wrong generalized anxietyπŸ’—πŸ˜œπŸ˜œ

Hi how are you lot? I been so confused hating usual I started a position in this nursery school I was so shocked that they choose me but as I knew something wasn’t right because there was two people running it seemed a bit distant weird it was run in a strange way it was a Montessori school but run in church.but I was panicked because it seemed they told me to wash up and everything but something didn’t add up I was looking at this as a second job . started getting anxious I’m 20 and have gone through a lot I spoke to my dad he said your job title is nursery assistant not everything for them anyway I spoke to the lady on the phone and said I’m bit concerned you gave me the job in a rush I haven’t given you my bank details.she was like I don’t think your right after being there for 4 days I couldn’t come on the fifth dayb Anway my ex sent me msg staying you ok im so worried about you very weird week need to calm my self down.πŸ˜‘πŸ€πŸ˜›πŸ˜ͺπŸ™„πŸ˜